Forgive Me Lyrics - GAWNE

 Forgive Me Lyrics - GAWNE

You were tryna stay

I was tryna fly

Had to get away

Bout to lose my mind

Need to be alone

Hate to say goodbye

Held you in my arms

One last time

You walked out the door

I left you behind

I left you behind

I left you behind

Babe forgive me please

This is killing me

God knows that I tried so hard

Wind blows and the sky goes dark

Ever since I lost my wife

There's a knife that's inside my heart

Pray that I go far

Rest in peace

Cause a piece of me died

Cannot hide those scars

I'm so sorry baby yeah but I chose art

Yeah I might be fucked in this head of mine

But I'm not too sick to acknowledge my

Ego's too big never swallow my pride

Outta time it's too late to apologize

I got some vices that ruined my life

Everyone left me they drew a line

Again and again I still crossed it

Respect and your boundaries I threw aside

Promise you love me and tell a lie

It was supposed to be you and I

Look in the mirror

I'm like who am I?

I hate myself cause I live a lie

I don't know what I'ma do this time

Don't give a fuck if I live or die

Only way out may be suicide

AHH

Say goodbye

God if you're listening please look away

I couldn't bear to let you down today

But I don't have strength to keep fighting my demons

I can't find a reason for me not to cave in

Too weak to be better now

Not a king I been a fucking clown

If nothing else I might have held the crown

For the biggest narcissistic head in town

All the people I burnt

Genuinely

I'm so sorry you were treated like dirt

Too insecure and my ego is hurt

Childhood trauma it brought out my worst

AH

Lord forgive me for I know I've sinned

Walls around me are closing in

What goes around comes around again

I'ma pay for it in the in end

Life is a moment that's fleeting

I used to feel it doesn't hold any meaning

Before it's too late I'ma the show you the reason

My love for you all is not over

The end is only the beginning

One last breath

That I have left

I'll be there for you even past death

From the otherside

Through the infinite void and the blackness

In the night sky

I'll be right there

No more nightmares

Let the light shine

On my mom and dad, Rebecca, Gabby, Nick, Paul

I'll never let you slip from my side

I will guide you through the rough storms

I would die for you

I would fight wars

If you're ever lost I will find you in every lifetime

And every life form

As I ride off

In the sunset

What comes next?

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

God I confess I got a lot of regrets

Tell you all of my secrets

No matter the punishment I am receiving

I'm letting you into the farthest reaches

Of my closet of demons and skeletons

Come in if y'all wanna see 'em

It kills me to say

I'm really not ok

No matter what the drug

Pills that I take

Girls that I fuck

Bills in the bank

It never was enough to deal with the pain

Withdrawals and my heads racing

Sick as a dog in my bed wasting away in hell

Someone tell Satan pitfalls are my temptations

I'm so sorry to the people I love

But sometimes love just isn't enough

That's why if you're struggling I never judge

Cause I can't seem to give this shit up

We gather here today for Luke Gawne

And then we move on

That's it

Death and taxes

Close the casket

Then it's blackness